Thee Oh Sees latest album 'A Weird Exits' is pretty cool and there is no finer way to kick-start a working day than with 'Plastic Plant' a psych workout with a humming bassline...
A life can be considered as a multitude of parallel streams, each of which feeds into the main flow of your river of life. The streams represent paths not taken whenever choices arose. When you choose a path, you exclude another path. Whichever route you choose, you don't know what would have happened if you'd chosen differently. You do have to believe, assuming you are happy with where you find yourself, that the other path wouldn't have been better. Sometimes a wrong decision can take you down a path you're not enjoying and still lead you back to happiness. Either way, there will be joy on the path you chose, even amongst the weeds that choke the stream. The song I've chosen, '1000 Years' by The Coral, touches on these themes.
I'm not a big fan of nostalgia. Never have been. I don't believe in the idea that things were much better in the past. A bad case of rose-tinted spectacles and all that. I prefer to look forward. Despite the current state of the world, I believe there is better to come, both individually and globally. Clearly, this is a preamble for a volte face - almost but not quite. I have gradually started to accept that good things in the here and now can come from roots in the past. My rejection of the past has been a bit extreme, and I've come to realise (I am a slow learner) that the past makes me who I am now. All of which is an excuse for a trip down memory lane. Many years ago I worked in the IT department of a supermarket chain, a chain that is no more as it got gobbled up by bigger fish. The team I worked in included two other men with the same Christian name as me. Up until then I don't think I'd met anyone with the same name. To distinguish each other we had ...
I could write a lot today, but I am not planning to. Why am I bothering to write at all, you may ask? Purely because of the date. The twenty-ninth of February only comes every four years (yes, I know there are exceptions to that rule - I have written code to deal with that in the past), when it's a leap year. I feel, for no apparent reason, I should mark this day with some words. It's starting to look a lot like E's decline has plateaued and we (the Sue Ryder nurse, maybe GP) may well decide to change the way medication is delivered. We'll not stop giving her medication to reduce the likelihood of seizures, nor will we stop the pain-relief medication because I think everyone that knows agrees there is no turning back from that. Respite. That's what I need, though as yet it's not easy to arrange. Maybe that will become a possibility next week. Within the family, we've been having lots of discussions about the end and how we want it to be, and where we ...
I have been swimming deeply in the sea of life, often miles from land, and there hasn't been space to write. Have you ever tried writing whilst immersed in the sea? Much has been going on externally and internally. Getting engaged to Q in July has necessitated some early planning, starting with where and when we'll be getting married. We have a date and a location. Based on the date of the wedding we've booked a venue for the party. These two dates being agreed upon, we've sent out initial invitations: this is especially important for most of Q's family as they will be travelling from a land down under, namely Australia. Most of August was taken up with this planning, mentally if not physically. As wedding-related activities have started to crystallise, I have begun to realise that everything has been leading towards the big day next year. Destiny. I've also found it hard to write here for a couple of different reasons. A bee flew into my bonnet and took up r...
For about a week, maybe more, I've had a cold. It's one of those colds that refuses to go quickly. I have shared it widely, unintentionally, though of course, I may not be the source of all the colds, there are so many about. I'm not here to write about my cold, though. It's a lead-in to something more pernicious. Accompanying the cold, especially as it slowly fades, I've had a bad headache. Initially, I thought it was cold-related, but I've come to believe it's a physical manifestation of stress - a topic that opens a crate of cans of worms. The stress I'm experiencing is probably the result of several things I'm anxious about. I had considered listing the things I thought were at the root of it, and then deciding whether they belong in the category of things I can control or cannot control. Instead, I've decided to dig deeper and write about it in the hope that writing it down helps control it and maybe it helps more widely. I've always b...
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