The Same Deep Water As You

[This probably ought to be a review of Kathryn Joseph and SHHE at South Street Arts Centre last night. But it isn't.]



Twilight twilight nihil nihil

Who will deliver me from this body of death? Who will deliver me from this body of death? Who will deliver me from this body of death? Who will deliver me from this body of death? There is no refuge I have found the word does not save There is no refuge In the rock or stone There is no refuge In the wind or other forces of nature The fire especially especially does not save The fire only destroys And though it may purify it takes takes takes And gives nihil back nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil And the holybooks alas have not Will not alas can not save nihil nihil nihil This is the chorus of the wind The sun the moon the waters all blue all green or stagnant Nihil they sing nihil The inmost light nihil, nihil The inmost light nihil, nihil The inmost light nihil Finally the child aged dies and sings Nihil this swansong towards nothing Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil We need not not not blow out the candle Nihil, nihil It dies anyhow Nihil, nihil, nihil Who will deliver me from this body of death? Nihil, nihil, nihil Who will deliver me from this body of death? Nihil call me nihil, nihil The stars are so far I had thought not but nihil, but nihil The great king is dead The great queen is dead Their child stillborn And so nihil nihil nihil nihil They call the inmost light But hear nihil, nihil, nihil Who will deliver me from this body of death? Who will deliver me from this body of death? Nihil, nihil, nihil I felt I saw you coming over the water Without you I am nothing And still I see you Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil In the room where Nihil, nihil, nihil The wineglass shattered in the box I gave it to you Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil Shattered Nihil I thought I saw you waving to me over the bay Nihil, nihil, nihil You waved Nihil Why we have no words any longer To say to one another Your mouth opens and Nihil, nihil, nihil Bend your face to kiss you said nihil Bend your arms to hold you said nihil And nihil, nihil, nihil There is nothing there Nihil, nihil, nihil Bend your face to kiss you said The waters arise and take me finally And my remembrance is Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil
The futility of everything. Existing not living. There is a way to end the darkness. The ache at the centre. The hollowness. Who will deliver me Nihil nihil nihil


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