Days/Daze

Words come easy or they don't come at all. A multitude of words bouncing around my head, but the moment I try to capture them and express what they are saying, they dissolve away to nothing. In my head I've written this blog several times over but each time I've sat down and tried to write it, the words are gone or they no longer seem to capture or express what I am trying to say.

 And so it remains.

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