... a darkness shining in brightness which brightness could not comprehend

[Thursday 1st November 2018]

 

It is amazing how the brain can turn the slightest positive event into a complete life-changing story, when in fact it just was one small isolated positive thing.  It leaks over from Wednesday into Thursday and then gradually the one event returns to being that:Outer Acid becomes Inner Acid. 

[Title is a quote from chapter 2 (aka 'Nestor') of 'Ulysses' by James Joyce]

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