What clashes here of wills gen wonts

[Friday 9th and Saturday 10th November 2018]



Friday, Saturday - every day - no matter how much it is willed, one positive cannot overcome one negative or at best indifferent.  No notice is taken...

[Blog title is a quote from Book I Chapter 1 page 4 of 'Finnegans Wake' by James Joyce]

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